It's been almost two months. I still can't get over her. I'm not sure if I can, I'm not sure if I just don't want to get over her. I love her, I still do and it's still even growing. You may think that's I'm such a weirdo or even a psychopath to allow myself to suffer like this just because of a girl. Well, maybe I am. But this is my choice, I may be suffering but I am still hoping that someday, somehow we'll be together.
It's so hard to understand why this has to happen. Why does she have leave just like that. Everything was fine one day and then the next day is completely different. I never expected anything in return, and I also never expected that I'd be hurt like this.
I said to myself before, just in case she'll reconcile with her husband, it would be alright with me, but I was wrong. I thought I wouldn't be hurt because I think that it would be the best thing for her to do for their daughter. So I thought... I loved her daughter as much as I loved her. And now, I miss them both.
How I wish I could go back in time. How I wish I never went to that Battle of the Bands last January, how I wish I never asked RJ for her number. How I wish I never went out with her. But, I don't want to regret everything, she made me so happy. I never felt as happy as I was when things were fine between me and her.
I may not be making sense at all. I think this last statement would make sense... I LOVE HER... AND I LOVE HER DAUGHTER... AND I HOPE THEY ARE HAPPY... AND I HOPE ONE DAY... WE'LL BE TOGETHER...
Currently listening to: Marc Dorsey - Crave
Currently feeling: confused
